The Children of those who refused to die

Becoming an amateur genealogist was not an endeavor that I was looking to add or cross off of my proverbial bucket list, truth be told I hadn’t given it so much of a second thought.

A little more than 4 years ago I was involved in a severe car accident and crisis of conscience ensued which served to remind me that my our existence is on this planet – is an act of living on borrowed time. But more importantly, I learned that I was a man wandering, lost to himself.

It was an epiphany of sorts as I slowly came to the realization that the repetition of lifting myself from the confines of my burdens, was not unlike the bodybuilder, who utilizes free weights in the act of crafting muscle.

In retrospect, I’ve come to find that angst and the assorted travails of life, is making me stronger rather than breaking me down.

I am encouraged, but tempered by weariness, knowing that the words from Marvin Gaye’s prescient song, “Trouble Man” would always manifest themselves on the horizon(s) of my life:

“There’s only three things
That’s for sure
Taxes, death and trouble…”

Being swept into the caverns of humility – coupled with the necessity of finding my way out, back into confines of the light, proved to be transformative.

My faith was brittle and coming to terms with the fragility of my spirit was difficult at best.

Realizing that I was guilty…

Of neglect.

Coming to terms with the wholesale abdication of speaking the hard truths to myself – was damning.

But –

Strangely enough, it was those shoulders that I stood on which served as a jury of sorts. A chance for redemption offered through the power of Ancestral healing, echoes from those that came before me was compelling.

The concept of love in the form of family always defined and saved me more times than I care to admit.

That prospect of tapping into the confines of legacy, the stories of those that came before me, was equal parts surreal and improbable.

The who, how, what, where and why served to be palpable obstacles. Coupling this with the dubious history of African-American’s beginnings in the United States lead me to believe that my efforts would be a fools errand, a contention that was shattered into a million pieces.

Finding the document listing my maternal 3rd Great Grandfather and 4th Great Grandmother as property shook my foundations.

Powered by the oral histories of my Grandmother, Aunt’s, Uncle’s, cousins and my parents and the potent networks of social media, I was able to find large segments of my family, separated by time, distance, but linked via memories and enduring oral histories.

Even more telling, was that as each link was reconnected to the family collective, it was as if we had known each other our entire lives.

The first gathering of 2nd and 3rd cousins on my maternal side in 2016

From Illinois, Ohio, Arkansas, Tennessee, California to our ancestral roots in Alabama, the rolling stone of family has failed to gather any moss.

The plodding gait of genealogy lent me wisdom and patience that was not at my disposal in years past.

My 4th Great Aunt and her children, my 1st cousins 4 times removed.

And, I am glad to report that grace has helped me to avoid an ignominious death by drowning in a salty ocean of tears, one of my own making.

Linking over 500 members of my family on both the paternal and maternal sides has been a irrefutable indicator of the majesty and the “I am” of God.

I, and my family members by extension are made powerful by the acknowledgement of the sacrifice, selflessness and love that was freely given by our ancestors and the power that lives on through us.

Love is truly a conduit to immortality – and I know this through their whispers of my ancestors, as we stand as living testaments of those who refused to die.

 
Copyright © 2017 ShunPwrites. All Rights Reserved

6 thoughts on “The Children of those who refused to die

      1. I am honestly floored to hear that, I was very reluctant to post this piece because I thought it didn’t have enough “heft”to it. I appreciate the kind words and your sentiments of power, God Bless you sister!

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      2. Aww! To Him belong all glory and honor! If I’ve learned nothing else from sharing my writing publicly in the past two years, (which is NOTHING I ever planned by the way); it was to be at peace with my piece before I published it.

        I have no control over how anyone processes my intent or thoughts…so I just stick to raw honest writing.

        Come what may.

        All the best😌🙏🏽💫e

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