I awoke this morning without the benefit of an alarm, I blinked hard and let my eyes adjust to the sun creeping through the blinds in my bedroom as it starts its procession over the landscape. Something is afoot, I’m rested, but restless.
It is a surreal feeling that, no matter how many times you experience it, you can never quite quantify it. The time before the grand manifestation, the wait before the other cosmic shoe drops or as I’m apt to describe it, the proverbial kick in the pants from the Almighty.
I’ve heard echoes from the drum roll for quite some time now, and as the sound gets progressively louder I find myself at a loss on whether to walk out onto the stage under my own power, or if I will have to be shoved into this grand production of the rest of my life.
It is grave act of hypocrisy to know the truth, yet choosing not to speak it, sometimes we have to speak truth to ourselves for the sake of putting it out into the Universe.
There is old adage that says:
“From your lips to God’s ears”
Strangely enough, this is a step often overlooked.
Initally, I mumbled, afraid of how it might sound rolling off my lips before I surprised myself with a full throated declaration…
“I don’t want to be a writer with a day job. I just want to be a writer, being this walking contradiction is too much to bear.”
There I said it God, I’ve thrown the gauntlet down, I claimed it, I affirmed my one of my greatest desires. I would ruminate on it, but you know… I’ve got to get to my day job, so I’ll let you handle the rest.
I hope you get to quit that day job!
I’ve never had much use for prayer. I changed my career and praying didn’t get it done. Signing up for a course did. Putting in hours of grueling work paid off.
I like those pictures. The one with the dock is spectacular.
I will Godless. The biggest misconception about prayer is that it is an act of stoic inaction, but is my contention that prayer is action, pure and unadulterated.
I’d be interested in a post clarifying that statement. Perhaps you’d even consider guest blogging about it on my blog? I’d include a link to your site etc. No pressure. It just sounds like an interesting topic.
Certainly Godless, I’d be honored to expand on that statement. This is area that I’ve evolved on over the years and, possibly my 2 cents may be beneficial to at least one person on this mudball that we call Earth.
That’s great! I look forward to it. My email address can be found on my About page. I appreciate your willingness to post on my blog. If I can ever return the favor, please let me know.
Sure thing, if there is any criteria that you would like me to adhere to shoot me an email at firstname.lastname@example.org
I don’t have any criteria. Just please include a bio and any links you want included. I don’t want to limit what you write or how you write it. I want it to be your opinion. I won’t change anything unless I happen to notice a small typo or something. 🙂
I understand your grief–I won’t be able to quit my day job any time soon either. Luckily, I also really like that job…it’s just very time consuming to balance it with writing and family.
Very true, but we do what we must…. Sometimes it poses a cost of sorts Michelle.